Fighting against all odds

“I’ll fight to the very last breath I have…”
We fight odds every single day of our lives. These odds are sometimes thrown at us from without….But I think the greatest odds are those from within.
I grew up hearing that a stab in the back made by an acquaintance is nothing compared to a stab in the face made by those you love.
Odds are anything that stands in your way to getting where you want to be. To some, these odds are habits, I mean…nasty ones, to others, these odds are family. This sounds quite weird but there’s a time unacceptable truth slaps you, right in the face to accept it. To others, these odds are enemies.
At times these odds just come pushing, and pushing you so hard, that you feel the strength you thought you had, is nothing compared to the wasted feeling you get of yourself_The hurts.
And then you cry, till you groan. That feeling of pain sterming right from your heart. “And then you cry not because you are weak…but because you have been strong for too long”
I am currently going through what I’ll call the worst phase of my life. A time where a mix of hard decisions are starring right in my face. A time where I self evaluate myself and realise certain truths, I’ll want to call them lies.
Have you ever been there, when you refuse the reality of things??
I just want to wake up and feel the lines of my life falling into pleasant places. But that’s not what I see now. I’m fighting my odds. So hard, that I loose my motivation to fight.
I write motivational posts….but I have been in situations where my drive and determination that I thought I had, failed me.
Then I’m still left with myself. Just “ME”. Looking at me and myself. I still have to do what I can….even when I can’t do it. I still need to press on…even when I don’t know where I’m going to have such strength to move on….
It is a battle within my life. I’m fighting a fight that requires strength. But I don’t know where I’m going to have that!
What’s my lesson?

I often hear people say don’t cry….be strong….
But I’ll tell you…cry…and cry…out all you’ve got. Cry out the pain, that helpless feeling, that stress, those worries…..Get angry…not at yourself…but at where you are.
For in your anger of where you are will stern the courage you need to fight with for a better you.
There are no odds you can’t defeat….
I say these to myself. I motivate myself
Because I have learnt, that we never stop learning.
As you fight on remember, you are your coach. The victory lies within you…search it and you’ll find it.

Love you all ❤❤❤❤❤